thoughts on the train

For the majority of my life, I have been in an educational setting, taking classes and exams, and then moving to the next grade. For the time being, I have matriculated from school and certainty.

I’m not sure how I feel about this time of my life. Uncertainty. Foggy future. Untold possibilities. This last year in college and after Youthworks, I was so excited to move beyond school. Now? I don’t know.

I’ve always been able to nail down my short term purposes, to justify my motivation and pursuit of the next goal. However, I don’t have any short term goals, I’m just floating in the midst of change. 

Change is change, neither good or bad, just a mountain to summit. It’s difficult and tiresome, but often the views at the peak justify the journey. At this time, the path is foggy and I can’t see the summit. 

Is it bad that I can’t see where I’m going and I don’t know my destination? I’m learning that uncertainty is a blessing. At this time in my life I’m moving to a completely new environment, challenging me to evolve and be who I am truly meant to be; myself. 

This two year period will be the most transformative in my life. I am able to begin new again, learn from mistakes, and grow into my being. I pray that I am able to see where God leads me, find and accept humility like Christ did, and be immersed in the path of the Holy Spirit. 

By the Grace of God, I will find myself and what I am called to do, and how to authentically love God, myself, and others.